Surgery Eve

And I'm very anxious to say the least. It's really kind of strange. Tomorrow at this time, I will have an organ out of my body. Not just any organ, but a female organ and it's just so final.

We decided a long time ago that we weren't having kids. And I'm totally fine with that. Really, I'm too old and don't have patience like I used to. Besides, we just get up and travel whenever we please, why would I want to be tied down with a kid. But this just makes it so final. Somehow, I have to get through that.

The other thing that makes me anxious....will it be laparoscopic or through my abdomen....the doctors won't know until they look with the scope and then make a determination. As they said at our consult. I have an unusual situation. A lot of scar tissue from a previous surgery, a uterus the size of a 12 week pregnancy and more fibroids. Waking up in the recovery room should be very interesting.

Today has been a lazy day. Because of the possible laparoscopic surgery, I had to start a liquid diet at noon today. At 5:00, I have to drink my 'yummy' magnesium citrate. Which will lead me to an evening of calling my bathroom home. Then I have to completely stop eating and drinking at midnight. It's going to be a long night and morning since I have to be at the hospital at 2:00PM.

I no doubt, will be starving. Not to mention that I am horrible when I go without food.

So there are my pre surgery feelings in a nutshell.

I'll report back when I get home from the hospital